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[11 Apr 2006|02:20am]
[ mood | discontent ]
[ music | Yeah yeah yeahs - "The Sweets" ]

Think me selfish, think me ignorant, call me desperate...

I want things back. I want it to go back to the way it was. I'm sick of looking for an answer, an excuse to let it go. Goodbyes are way tougher than I thought.

I guess it's best easier to say we both met each other at bad times in our lives.

Here's to not caring...

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At least back then I thought I was happy.
Pick up the gun

[07 Apr 2006|02:36am]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | Elliott Smith - "Independence Day" ]

There’s a point when the best thing you got going for you is forgetting it ever happened,
Turning back is no longer in the cards,
And coming to grips that everything is different is the hardest thing you’ll have to swallow.
The time it’s taken you to “reflect” and “gather” how you feel has expired and I don’t care to be associated with a coward any longer.
One day you’ll have to face the sins we have committed
…all the alcohol in the world and all those useless words you write in that pathetic bound journal won’t save you then.
25 going on 16.
Its spring-cleaning, and note that these are the last words I will ever direct to you.

"I'm not what's missing from your life now, I could never be the puzzle pieces..."
-Elliot Smith

4 shots to the head Pick up the gun

[01 Nov 2005|02:50pm]
[ mood | Exhausted Emotionally ]
[ music | Portishead ]

Is this right?
…Cause it doesn’t feel right.
I speak the words he wants to hear.
Artificial love.
LIES
The words I say spill out of my mouth in hopes that maybe this time if I say the “right” things it’ll last…
Confusing memories that fuck up my will to move on weave in and out of my head.
…Selfish and greedy for love and affection. (that's me)
Will he be the one who gives me his heart?
And what will I do with it?
I look back at this path that has brought me here.
I see fragments of my heart.
Jagged, broken, raped, and left scattered.
Thoughts of being avenged for all those desperate pleas, those lonely nights, that river of endless tears.
As I hold his heart up, my aim is for the gound where my heart was left broken.
…Even the score, take vengeance a voice speaks.
This isn't right.
...THIS ISN'T RIGHT!
I refuse to be the one that does this...
Pick up the gun

Relationships are a BITCH! [10 Jan 2005|12:34am]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | For the first time nothing at all. ]

Wow, it’s been a long time since I’ve updated or been on this website. I have a lot of catching up to do. But unfortunately I don’t know where to start and I haven’t got the time to explain a lot of stuff.

So this will be in short:

Before writing this I was going to post an entry explaining how happy I think I am and how everything seems to be going smooth. I have this “boyfriend” I have this job and for once I feel somewhat satisfied. But then I got to thinking and to be honest I’m not as “happy” as I think I am. You see it’s funny how much of a person’s past you can come to understand when you browse through files on a personal computer. Pictures mostly. Yes I know this is wrong and rude. But I’m gunna tell you straight out, I’m the most jealous nosiest person you’ll come to meet. Pictures can mean and tell a lot. Pictures of family, friends, pets, self-photos, past crushes, ex-girlfriends, and the former girlfriend…catch my drift? I did something wrong and went in and looked at things I shouldn’t have looked at and I find myself disgusted at what I saw. Not disgusted…more like let down. Looking at pictures in chronological order just left me feeling like another name on a list. I’m here now but in another two or three months whose pictures will be after mine?

klsdajhfskjdhf this insecurity shit is no good. I have no faith in anything I do and especially in this so called “relationship” that I find myself in at the moment. I’m concentrating SO much on how this all will end then actually enjoying what I have in the present.

I have no trust in anyone or anything.

Goodnight…

2 shots to the head Pick up the gun

[20 Nov 2004|09:01pm]
[ mood | Complete [For once] ]
[ music | Radiohead - "Optimistic" ]

So I finally got a job, and a fucking awesome one at that. Adrienne works at Virgin Megastore in the Ontario Mills! It’s so fun working there. I’ve been employed for about a week. I worked five days straight this past week. It’s been hectic, there’s SO much to learn. But I think I got everything down so far. Virgin hooks their employees up FAT! Discounts, concert tickets, posters, promos, etc. I’m relieved I’m no longer unemployed. It feels good to have a kick ass job. I get paid to find and sell music to people while I listen to music. My album collection is about to be super-sized. I must say, working at a music store is A-MAZING.

I’ve noticed that I’ve sorta lost contact with a lot of people this past month. I’ve been spending most if not all of my free time with Jeremiah. ) Not that, that’s a bad thing or anything. If anything it’s good. I’ve haven’t been out clubbing it up and boozing it up as much. And my smoking has stopped for the most part. It’s funny how one person can do that to you. I find that movie sleepovers are much more exciting than the Hollywood club scene. Ok that’s a lie, but it’s cheaper. This is a random fact but I have a toothbrush at Jeremiah's house. Weird huh?

Let’s see what else has been going on. OH YEAH. My weekend was quite amazing:

Friday: The Faint @ the Glass House
Saturday: Le Tigre @ the Glass House // After Party at Jeremiah’s house.
Monday: Faint @ the Mayan in LA.</br>

I’ll have pictures of the shows up soon. I’m just being lazy about uploading them on to Photobucket.

But I just wanted to give a quick update. And that is all.
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... [07 Nov 2004|04:19am]
[ mood | Just Dandy. ]
[ music | Rilo Kiley - Salute My Shorts! ]

I’m happy. Everything is going well in my sad pathetic life. I have the best friends in the world, I’m “seeing” the best guy ever, and everything just seems to be falling into place for once in my life.

“And I say there’s trouble when everything is fine. The need to destroy things creeps up on me every time.”
–Rilo Kiley

Thursday: I saw Death Cab For Cutie and Pretty Girls Make Graves at the Glasshouse with Jeremiah and his wonderful friends Chiara and Jessica. Then shared a movie night with Jer at his house and spent the night.

|| Pictures of the show || )


Friday:
Spent most of the day with Jer running errands. Then later that night I finally got to spend time with Corina! She’s the best listener. I love her. Me, Corina, and Chris went to downtown Claremont and smoked hookah at CK’s.

|| Pictures || )


Tonight:
Went to this show with Jer in Redlands, which consisted of local hardcore bands. Not too shabby. Went to Jer’s casa and watch Batman Forever. Then we went to the Mills and then to some Asian market place in….I forget the name of the city. But it was pretty cool. Ate some authentic Chinese food, played some Asian video games [Which totally reminded me of the arcade in Lost In Translation], took some pictures, chatted it up in the car with Jess, Charia, and Jer. Then came home and here I am…

|| More pictures || )

Tomorrow:</b> UnderOATH show at the Chain. OoOoO it’s going to be wonderful.

I'm tired. This whole week has been crazy and unexpected. Goodnight.
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Just one thing before I sleep... [23 Oct 2004|05:24am]
[ mood | relieved ]
[ music | The Streets - "Blinded By the Lights" ]

Tonight I found a new LOVE for:

My new digital camera [Oh it's sassy]
"Haunted trails" at Cal Poly
Dust Off
Frat house lawns
Hugs in the cold
Warm breaths on my cold neck
Denali

Tonight I found a new HATE for:

GRASS!
The Cold [It's bittersweet]
The end of an amazing nights

|| Just a few pics I took tonight with my new digital || )

My lungs ache, my legs hurt and I'm ready for bed.
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"You find things when you least expect them..." -Bill [21 Oct 2004|03:56am]
[ mood | optimistic ]
[ music | Coldplay - Trouble ]

Sunday Sunday Sunday…


I had the best time with my new favorite person Bill. That night was one big spontaneous web of goodness.

To make an XTREMELY long story short, Bill and I went to Hollywood thinking we were gunna hit up 82. But when we got to the door of the club we looked at each other with second thoughts of going in. We decided to roam and adventure the streets of LA instead of being surrounded by “scenesters” because, you know, Bill and I are SO anti-scene, haha. After walking for about an hour we turned our focus on a hunt for a porn theater. Like the one Peewee Herman was caught masturbating in. We found one but we were low on cash and were unable to enter. Hopefully if Bill was serious, we’re going back this weekend and the mission will be completed. We went to Denny’s had some coffee and headed back to the 909. We sat in front of my house for about 2 hours just talking about random shit. But those are the best conversations. We called it a night around 5am-ish. Just in time for me to get ready for school. :\

Yes this may sound like an uninteresting night to you. But let me tell you, it was far from it. I got to spend the night getting to know a guy I barely even know. Hanging out with him gave me this weird feeling. A good-weird feeling. Sunday was the first time we really hung out together and I felt as if I’ve known him forever. The two of us are a deadly tag team. Bill is going to get me into a shit load of trouble in the time we will hopefully spend together in the future. I’m actually looking forward to it. We joked about moving in together and becoming best friends. So Jeff you better watch out.

But I think I might have said something at the end of the night that threw everything off. I always find a way to make great situations confusing. Lets just say the phrase: “Let’s not get any feelings envolved..” came out of my mouth when we were hugging goodbye. I know, I know THAT WAS INCREDIBALLY STUPID! To be honest I didn’t mean it at all. I said that because I was scared. I didn’t wanna fall into something again that might hurt me. Yes I know this was the first time we hung out, but for some reason I caught myself falling for him in that one night. I haven’t felt that way in a long time and I was caught off guard. What I said was me putting up a defense to protect myself. But in the end I think I made things worse. What I REALLY meant to say was “Let’s not get any feelings involved too soon. Lets take everything one day at a time…” But no, I had to open my big mouth and ruin a good thing. A false impression. @#$&$! I wanna talk to him about what I said, but I don’t wanna make things awkward. So I guess the best thing to do it just let it go. What do you think? I was also thinking of send him this entry. It would explain a lot to him, but do you think it would push him away further?

We arranged to waste some time together tonight. And the infamous “I wanna hang out with you too. I’ll call you back” game began. Which ended with no call back. I guess I deserve it. But then again maybe something came up. Who knows, I’m not gunna jump to conclusions. Those just lead to something ugly.

BUT I’m not stressing it at all. I know things will be cleared up A-SAP, I just don’t know how or when. I’m not pushing anything I’m just gunna roll with the punches. I’m very optimistic about this situation. Which is very odd because I always like to view things half empty rather than half full.

This is for Sam. I KNOW she’s gunna ask for it: Amethyst.


But yes. In the end I met an incredibly wonderful person Sunday and I hope we at LEAST become first-class buddies. :)
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You'll Never Find It If You're Looking For It [18 Oct 2004|06:16am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | Death From Above - "Head Up" ]

I fell upon something wonderful this weekend!


Tonight was the most spontaneous, craziest, greatest night I've had in a while.

And guess what?

It didn't involve alcohol, the special herb, a can of computer cleaner, OR a boy from the 323 area. *GASP*

More details later. Time to go to school.

Hollywood is lovely when it rains.
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"Let go in our heart, let go in out head, and feel it now.." [05 Oct 2004|03:44am]
[ mood | exhausted ]
[ music | David Gray - "Babylon" ]

This weekend went down in my book as the best weekend I’ve had in a while.

Friday: Halloween Swim Team/Explogasm/Child Pornography show at the 51 Buckingham in Pomona.

Hung out with some friends. Meet some new people. Fell in love with Explogasm. And was publicly announced as HST’s number one fan.
A downside to the night was I had the WORST headache ever the whole time I was there. But I made the best of the situation.

Saturday: Went out to club Bang with Kirstine, Carlos and Kandice. This was probably the most intense night of the weekend. I was super sauced up. I was all over the place. So many of our friends showed up that night. It was just marvelous to get drunk and have a good time with the people I care most about. No drama, no situations running through my head, just pure drunken fun.

Sunday: Rob, Los, JACK ATTACK, Kirstine, Kandice, and a bunch of other people met up at 82.
The highlight of the night was the Beaner vs. Beaner dance off between Rob and myself. To make a long story short, the competition ended with me being chucked to the floor while water was poured all over me. I got revenge by kicking Rob in his “area” and he joined me on the floor. So in MY opinion I won that shit.

So yes. What a weekend indeed.

_______________

-RANDOMNESS-


-My mom comes back tomorrow. Ugh.

-I’m watching the Sex Show on Oxygen and this shit is funny...aha, wow this show is great. This is the last thing I heard:
“Honey your genitals are lovely, and they don’t smell bad.”


-I ♥ this song:

David Gray - "BABYLON"
Friday night I'm going nowhere
All the lights are changing green to red
Turning over TV stations
Situations running through my head
looking back through time
You know it's clear that I've been blind
I've been a fool
To open up my heart
To all that jealousy, that bitterness, that ridicule

Saturday I'm running wild
And all the lights are changing red to green
Moving through the crowd I'm pushing
Chemicals all rushing in my bloodstream
I Only wish that you were here
You know I'm seeing it so clear
I've been afraid
To show you how I really feel
Admit to some of those bad mistakes, I've made


-Tonight I went to the Claremont village and smoked hookah with Chris and Matt. I love Green Tea to the max. So I got this really awesome bottled Green Tea called FUZE. O my, that stuff if de-lish! It’s an orgasm in your mouth when you drink it. I recommend it to EVERYONE who loves the tea that is green.

_______________


So yes…that’s that.
Adrienne out.
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Tonight I'm gunna party like it's 1999, AGAIN! [02 Oct 2004|04:42pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | Less Than Jake - "Hello Rockview" ]

DING DONG MY MOM IS GONE!

..Praise the good lord above! This weekend I have the WHOLE house to myself! No nagging, no yelling, no bitching. Just me and my house. I love it!

*Happy dance around my room*
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[29 Sep 2004|07:12pm]
[ mood | weird ]
[ music | Miss Kitten & the Hackers ]

Hmmm where to begin?

…well me and Megan started this club called the “FUCK THAT FUCKER” club, FTF for short. We’re just pissed off at penises in general therefore FTF was created out of rage against them. See when you join you can make a list of people you like to see raped with a rusted 5 ft garden hoe.

My List [as of September 29, 2004]:

-Daniel Sosa
-Jose Aceves
-“Hyphen Boy”


...So yeah, feel free to share your list with me. I’d like to know, and possibly help with the rape process.

Moving forward...I just watched the Blood Brothers DVD. Ahh a week from tomorrow I will be front and center at the Glass House getting my ass kicked to the SEX sounds of the Brothers of Blood for a second time this year. My goal is to molest Johnny Whitney and have him like it so much that at the end of the show he finds me and we make sweet love in the back alley….Hey a girl can dream! Oh my lord he’s SO saucy, but enough about that. I’m getting all worked up, hot and bothered. *sigh*

To make a long entry semi short last night I went over to Chris’ house for a movie night. The night started off with Fear & Loathing In Las Vegas and ended with a journey around Alta Loma with Chris, his brother Matt and their digital camera.


[Pimp Status]

|| There’s more where that came from… || )


Drum roll PLEASE!
…I followed through with my oath to see the movie Garden State over the weekend. Extraordinary movie. I loved it. And WHAT THE SHIT!? I about fell out of my chair when Method Man graced the silver screen. Method Man is amazing.
Classic quote from Method Man:
“Raise your hand if you just saw titties…Alright so everyone just calm the fuck down.”



On another note, Zach Braff ‘s lips *drools* are plump yummy-ness.I advise everyone to see this movie ASAP.

|| LETS JUST ALLOW OURSELVES TO BE WHATEVER IT IS WE ARE || )
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I've found the beauty in the breakdown [25 Sep 2004|02:17pm]
[ mood | Overall, I feel like shit. ]
[ music | Frou Frou - "Let Go" ]

I drank WAY too much last night
I threw up
…three times
I haven’t done that in a long time
I left Underground an hour early
…to pass out in the backseat of Marks car
I’ll never drink Matt’s Vodka again
...EVER...
I came home pretty sauced
I went to my back yard to lay on the cement
I listened to Bright Eyes
…and broke down and started crying

“And so I drink to stay warm, and to kill selected memories
'Cause I just can’t think anymore about that, or about him tonight
I give myself three days to feel better
Or else I swear I'm driving off a fucking cliff
'Cause if I can’t learn to make myself feel better
How can I expect anyone else to give a shit?”


He didn’t call me last night
He didn’t send me a message either
His phone number was deleted from my cell phone
…again
At 4am I found my bed
…and passed out again
I woke up with the worst headache
I feel like shit

I'M NEVER DRINKING THAT MUCH AGAIN!
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"You make me feel like a person...." [24 Sep 2004|05:44pm]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | The Shins - "Warm Light On A Winter's Day" ]

Yesterday I had a Darren Aronofsky DVD fest. Well ok it wasn’t REALLY a fest it was more like I watched two of his films. π [Pi] and Requiem For A Dream [I had to have my monthy fix of Requiem] Both movies are intense. Watch them if you’ve never seen them. You’ll thank me later. ESPECIALLY Requiem. O my that’s one of my favorites.




[Requiem For A Dream]


[π]
_______________



---> I’M SEEING THIS ISH THIS WEEKEND <---


I think I watched the trailer about 50 times last night. I’m SO hyped to see it. I downloaded the soundtrack and WOAH it’s amazingly “scrumtrelescent”! [Aha, I was watching the Best Of Will Farrell DVD today..]

_______________


This weekend is going to be a busy one for me…

Tonight: Underground. [Los, Jack Attack, Robert, Matt, Mark]
Saturday: Neon Lipstick show in Fullerton [Chris and Matt]
Sunday: 82…? It's all still up in the air. But yeah I’ll end up going last minute.

He called me yesterday to “Just say hi” as he put it. Nice I guess. I told him that I’ll be in his area this weekend and I’d call or message him on “The Space” to let him know when and where. I let him know I’d be there tonight, so we’ll see what happens. I REALLY wanna see him tonight. Adrienne needs a fix. BAH HAHA. So yeah, that’s that.
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No sleep till Cheffey....? [22 Sep 2004|05:48am]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | N.E.R.D - "She Wants To Move" [Yes I like this song...] ]

So yes it's about 5:47am and I just got back from sassing my shit up in riverside. I know, LAME TO THE MAX. But eh, I had a good time at InCahoots. All the chill homies were there. JACK ATTACK [I ♥ her!], Los, Kirstine, Kandice, Jacob, Miguel [We finally worked out our awkwardness], Charlie, Brandon and more I can't remember to name...SO TIRED! I met some new people too, which is always a plus. Me and B-Rizzle vogued our asses off the whole night. After the club we all flocked to Denny's like a fucking tribe. We had to put like 3 tables together so we'd all fit.

OoOoO everyone should be jealous! Adrienne snagged a promo poster for the NEW Faint "Wet From Birth" album. Oh yes my coolness just went up a step!

I have class in about an hour. Ugh I hate school…I hate it. But I gotta go today, cause I didn't go Monday. When I get home I'm crashing HARDCORE on my bed. Sleep sounds SooOoO good right now. Time to pop some caffeine pills. I might go smoke a fag to keep myself alert.

Skjfhslkfjhsdf!


*Note to self:*
Never take early classes again. ESPECIALLY on Mondays &/or Wednesdays.


_______________


Girls on MySpace that:

-List Donnie Darko as “THE BEST MOVIE IN THE WORLD”
-Have a Taking Back Sunday song playing on their profile

and

-claim to be SCENE cause they know who “Pedro” is

...are LAME.


Oh yeah and they're EXTRA LAME if they list Christina Aguilera as someone they'd like to meet.
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No more drunken phone calls from me [17 Sep 2004|10:15pm]
[ mood | determined ]
[ music | Rilo Kiley - "A Man/Me/Then Jim" ]

The delete function on phones solves SO many problems...

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"Hey baby you never felt this good..." [16 Sep 2004|04:05pm]
[ mood | hyper ]
[ music | Refused - "Refused Are Fucking Dead" ]

Philosophy can suck my fucking clit! I had to write my first Analysis paper last night. I about killed myself, but I have good news…I FINISHED AND TURNED IT IN! I feel an A coming in my future yet again.

…Enough about school. Let’s see, what else has been going on in the wild and crazy life of Adrienne. Nothing much actually. My week has consisted of cigarettes, caffeine pills, and school. Weekends consist of alcohol, clubs, and sex. Not too bad. I need to cut back on the cigarette smoking for sure. I’ve been smoking too much this week for some reason. I’m thinking about limiting how many I smoke each day to 2, although I know it won’t happen it’s worth verbal recognition.

Sunday was fun. GNO had a reunion at 82. Everyone was there. Sandra, Vena, Mike, Josh, Los, Kirstine, Jack attack, Marlene, and Mike’s friend who I’ve met before but forgot his name. Although I didn’t go in 82 I had fun at the after party that went down at Denny’s.

He called me when I was about to pay to get in 82 and said he was really tired and didn’t think he was going to show up at 82. Being that I was drunk and desperate to see him, I asked if I could come to his house to chill till everyone got out of the club. Los, and Jack attack were SO pissed that I would do something like that, but hey I was intoxicated. He said it was up to me if I wanted to come over. He said he just wanted to take a shower and sleep. I was feeling a bit tipsy when I was talking to him [ok, ok I’m lying I was full on drunk] But when I was asking if I could come over he asked if I was drunk and when I answered “yes…sorta” he said something that REALLY upset me. He said, “Why is it that every time I see you you’re drunk, high or both?” Jhsdkjghsg! Geez! Yeah I know it’s true, but when I go to Hollywood I go to clubs and I dunno about you guys but when you’re in a club and you’re sober it’s NO FUN at all. It’s not like I drink during the week. It’s only a weekend thing. When I go to a party, club or some sort of social gathering where OTHER people are drunk as well. So when he said that I was floored! Come on, what does he expect? I could see if I was going to Hollywood JUST to see him and if I showed up drunk, THEN ok yeah I would say I have a problem. But the fact that earlier that night I thought I was going to 82 [A CLUB], drinking was a must. So yeah, I was speechless at that question. I was like “Fool, I’m not ALWAYS drunk…” and he was like “I’m looking at your MySpace page right now and you even admit it…’My name is Adrienne and I’m a drunken slut.’ When you say things like that on the internet you’re definitely an alcoholic.” O M F G! I couldn’t believe he said that! That struck a nerve and it made me start thinking. My greatest fear is to become an alcoholic. So being speechless again, I replied “WHATEVA! I’m coming over…” So as I’m going to his house [About two streets from 82] I called Jeff and asked him if he thought I was an alcoholic. Jeff started laughing and said no. I explained to Jeff what I was told and Jeff was like “FUCK THAT FOOL, DRINK IT UP GUUURL!” Ahh I ♥ my Jeffy-Poo. So as I was walking to his house I started thinking that maybe I shouldn’t go after all…going to his house just made me look desperate. But ugh, I dunno, I went anyways, plus I wanted to get my jacket that I left at his house last time when I spent the night. In the end I’m glad I went. I got there and he was in the shower so I got to talk to his friend Luke. He’s a really good conversationalist and a pretty cool fellow. We went outside and smoked a cigarette and talked about all sorts of things. When we came back inside about 15 minutes later he was laying on the couch. To make a long story short, we all just sat around talking about a plethora of topics. It was cool to be there and carry a conversation with him and his friend. The 2 hours I was there felt like 20 minutes. So at 2am I called Jack and she said everyone was at Denny’s. He offered to drive me. We go to Denny’s and that was that.

Josh was at Denny’s. Josh just recently broke up with his girlfriend. Josh is hot. Josh has hooked up with me before…and it was nice. I was glad to see him there. Ahh, I’m such a whore. But it’s ok because that is the SOUL reason I’m not in a relationship right now…

*cough, cough*

Moving on…TUESDAY I WENT TO DISNEYLAND! I have pictures:




[ME AND MY IDOL]

|| CLICKEY || )

..I was SUPER bored today. So I made this graphic to solve my boredom. I kinda like the way it came out.



[A tribute to !!!]
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We're all just subterranean homesick aliens... [12 Sep 2004|06:26am]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | Radiohead - "Subterranean Homesick Alien" ]

Last night I fell asleep with my patio window open and the curtains pulled back. I had my iPod repeating the Radiohead Ok Computer album. I awoke as the sun was rising to this playing in my ears:



Subterranean Homesick Alien

The breath of the morning
I keep forgetting.
The smell of the warm summer air.

I live in a town
where you can't smell a thing,
you watch your feet
for cracks in the pavement.

Up above
aliens hover
making home movies
for the folks back home,

of all these weird creatures
who lock up their spirits,
drill holes in themselves
and live for their secrets.

They're all uptight…

I wish that they'd sweep down in a country lane,
late at night when I'm driving.
Take me on board their beautiful ship,
show me the world as I'd love to see it.

I'd tell all my friends but they'd never believe me,
They'd think that I'd finally lost it completely.
I'd show them the stars and the meaning of life.
They'd shut me away.
But I'd be alright, alright,
I'd be alright,
I'm alright.

I'm just uptight…



…So for the first time I went outside to watch the Sun rise as I smoked a fag and replayed the song. I've been on this Radiohead kick lately and to be honest I never really paid too much attention to this song before. It gave me this odd feeling as I listened to the lyrics and watch the night sky change. GOD I WISH I HAD A FUCKING DIGITAL CAMERA!! It was beautiful to say the least. I gained some sort of safety from this experience, and I had to share it…

Everyone should listen to or download this song to see what I'm talking about.

ADRIENNE HAS A NEW FAVORITE RADIOHEAD SONG!
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COCAINE is a hell of a drug! [03 Sep 2004|12:54pm]
[ mood | drained ]
[ music | !!! - "Dear Can" ]

I'm sitting here watching the Real World Las Vegas marathon that's going on right now on MTV. It's the 3rd episode in the season and I'm already bored with the whole thing. They need to bust out the Miami season! "YOU STUPID BITCH!" <--- Best quote ever.

...I NEED a digital camera like a scenester needs a Big Mac. I have a feeling my mama's hooking it up for my birthday. Gosh, I hope she gets me a digital. I'll just keep my fingers crossed, and hope for the best.



Wednesday night Matt and I went to see the Violent Femmes in Ventura. I can't begin to describe how weird the crowd was. It seemed like everyone that was there were hippie tree huggers experiencing a really bad trip on Acid. It was really funny to stand back and watch them from a sober point of view. I never new how old (age) the Femmes were. But nevertheless they put on a pretty legit show. The highlight of the night was walking back to the car and witnessing two people getting down and dirty in a truck passenger seat. That was the first time I've ever seen "public" sex. It was different...SEE ANOTHER REASON WHY I NEED A CAMERA!

I called Jer last night. I was super nervous about calling him, I almost chickened out when I dialed the number. I haven't seen or talked to him since last Friday. I thought it semi odd being he used to call me at least twice a week, and then suddenly he stopped. So I took the initiative and called to see what the deal was. In the end I was SUPER glad that I called him. We talked for like an hour (that's a long time for me) about all kinds of stupid shit. But yeah it was nice to do that.

So0o0oo I have a Hollywood hook up, and it's really nice. No attachments, no drama, just crazy fun on the weekends. He's super cool and it's swell to know when I'm in LA all I have to do is call him up and he'll be there to hang out. We're gunna meet up at 82 this Sunday...So yeah, that's all I have to say about that. ♥

I wanna see Garden State! Someone take me to see it...

Chris just called me and wanted to know if I wanted to go smoke some hookah tonight...I think I might accept. I haven't done that in a while. I'm trying to get a group of people to come. I think it'll be fun. Hopefully some good times await me tonight.
8 shots to the head Pick up the gun

Sometimes lonely hearts they just get lonelier [31 Aug 2004|04:14pm]
[ mood | mellow ]
[ music | Interpol - "Evil" ]

School still sucks. I have my first Philosophy test tomorrow and I'm feeling pretty confident about it. A is for Adrienne.

...On a more exciting note, how amazing is this going to be:

-Friday, Nov 12 The Faint @ The Glass House
-Saturday, Nov 13 Le Tigre @ The Glass House


Can you believe that!? Day one: The [FUCKING] Faint. Day two: Le [FUCKING] Tigre! Jeff and I coined this spectacular 2 day event the First Annual Glass House Electrofest. O my, I can't wait.

Friday was a good time had by all. Marlene's little b-day bash in China town went down in my book as the craziest night ever. A full moon can make a normal night SO bazaar.

I pulled an all nighter Sunday and I went to the *new* Club 82 at the Blue. I can't say I like the new mix. I miss the old 82 at the Echo. But alcohol and friends made it fun, as always.

So the new Rilo Kiley is AMAZING and I advise everyone to buy it. Jenny is amazing to say the least.



"I read with every broken heart we should become more adventurous "


..I can't wait to see them again on October 29th! *sigh* What a super birthday gift.
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